A note left by Gigi Jordan—the socialite mom who allegedly killed her 8-year-old son in a murder-suicide attempt—suggests child pornography and sexual abuse played a role in the rich woman's desperate act. "I hope Jude is in a better place," wrote the Belgian multi-millionaire, going on to suggest that her autistic son was the victim of rape.

Jordan was found with a faint pulse yesterday morning, sitting next to her dead son on the floor of the five-star Peninsula Hotel, with pills littered about. The onetime pharmaceutical exec was “babbling” when she was taken away. According to Deputy Police Commissioner Paul Browne she "made statements implicating herself in her son's death." Police sources told the NY times an overdose of prescription drugs most likely caused the death.

In the note Jordan mentions speaking with a Wyoming child porn investigator who "told me many rich people are involved. Many wealthy guys trade child porn like a hobby." So far it’s unclear what to make of the scandalous prose since the 49-year-old—who is currently at Bellevue in critical condition—was and is in a questionable mental state, distraught by a recent divorce. In the note the she also makes reference to huge $12 million and $8 million checks she wrote to Doctors Without Borders and the Red Cross for Haiti relief efforts, but so far they have no records of the donations.